Am i one am i de Carrier Flux

For i feel, as fallen pain
scold myself with useless blame
drag the blade across my lips
purge the lie, release my fist
As far as i as one have come
as for my lies, i burn in each and every one
as for the truth, denied by fear
and for my pain, i brought it all upon myself
this fear that i may de my dream
success means i am more than none
to be as one is what i fear
In days of hope, i dream i'm dead
to be as stone and still - my mind
as i rise to de as one
my past this life, i leave as filth
It all comes together
when we open up our mind
open wounds will kiss me
dressed in blood meet my god